This picture was taken on February 5th
Porter passed away on March 5th
Today is April 5th
What a difference a month can make. We would have never guessed.
We've checked high and low through the cell phone photos and cameras in our family to try and find the very last photos taken of Porter and these are the final two we came up with. It was Cooper's birthday on February 5th and we were having a quiet evening at home with cake and visits from the grandparents. As usual Porter provided smiles and laughter with his goofiness. Porter isn't a hugger, yet he quickly put his arm around Cooper and probably said something funny to make us all laugh for the photo. I love that he had on his white t-shirt and jeans in these two final photos. That was his favorite attire! As soon as the candles were blown out and cake was eaten he was probably off to his room to grab his guitar to play us all the latest and greatest tune or rhythm he had written.
The house is much too quiet. I want to hear the melodic sounds of his guitar ringing through the hallways. I want to hear his silly kid voice that he did so often. I want to hear him say "Jeez mom" an octave higher than his bass voice just one more time, because he knew that always made me laugh. (I always repeated back "Cheese Mom?") I want to hear him recording music in the piano room, and see his microphone in his face and his earphones on his head. I want to invite him in to me and daddy's room for prayer before bedtime just once more. I want to see him so lovingly play with Pebbles our cat. He adored her more than anyone else.
Do I want too much? I don't think so.
I love you Porter♥