1st Week 9 miles 2nd Week 20 miles 3rd Week 23 1/2 miles 4th Week 33 miles 5th Week 27 miles 6th Week 18 1/2 miles 7th Week 19 1/2 miles 8th Week 7 1/2 miles 9th Week 0 miles :( 10th Week 24 1/2 miles 11th Week 15 miles 12th Week 21 miles 13th Week 21 1/2 miles 14th Week 25 miles 15th Week 15 miles 16th Week 38 miles 17th Week 33 1/2 miles 18th Week 28 miles 19th Week 24 1/2 miles 20th Week 13 miles (at girls camp) 21st Week 24 miles 22nd Week 28 miles 23rd Week 22 1/2 miles 24th Week 27 miles 25th Week 23 1/2 miles 26th Week 21 miles 27th Week 25 miles 28th Week 30 1/2 miles 29th Week 30 miles 30th Week 22 miles
Today is a hard day. It has been six months since I lost my 18 year old baby. Those emotional waves that come and go aren't happening as often, yet Porter is always in the back of my mind and forever in my heart. I can be doing something as simple as driving down State Street and I will start crying. I was weeding and cleaning the yard yesterday and a small memory triggered something and I started crying. I don't mind crying, in fact it is very cleansing for me. It's just embarrassing when it happens in public. My eldest son walked into the room last night and said "It still doesn't seem real." I knew exactly what he was talking about and I completely agreed with him. Each day I wake up and hope it's a bad dream, yet reality hits and I know it isn't.
In just 8 days, September 13th, it will be Porter's 19th birthday. We are having a big celebration for him. We are breaking it down into two different days. On Saturday the 11th we are eating breakfast burritos (Porter's all-time favorite food) at the Dry Canyon parking lot in Lindon and then hiking Porter's mountain and placing this memorial rock at the base of the cliff. A good friend of our family owns a business called rememberrocks.com and created this beautiful rock for us to place in the mountains. (Thanks so much Neal and Arlene) Our family sat around the kitchen table one night trying to figure out what to put on the rock and this is what we all agreed on. Porter's very favorite group was Keane and his favorite song was "Somewhere Only We Know." This title also has reference to those of us that know exactly where he fell, and that's where this memorial will be placed.
The second part of Porter's birthday celebration will be on Monday the 13th and will be held in our back yard. Porter's life long dream was to be in a band and to be famous one day. He worked so hard at his music, his writing, his audio mixing and eventually tried out to be in a band and was accepted. The name of the band is "Ask for the Future". They are so graciously coming to perform a concert in Porter's honor. We are so excited about this event and are looking forward to a nice evening of music, friends, family, and neighbors, whom we appreciate and love so much. Oh! and eating cake too because it's a birthday party.
A blog about life in general but lately in the last couple years has turned to a blog about my experiences through running. There will still be posts about family life as well as running as I continue with this new found love. The title of my blog "You'll Always Have My Heart" comes from wanting to always keep my son, Porter, in my memory as he was taken from me in March 2010 in a tragic hiking accident.
Jan 1-New Years Revolution Run Jan 31-25K Snowshoe Race Feb 14- Red Hot 55K Mar 21-Buffalo 50 Miles April 24-25-Ragnar Trail at Zions April 25-Thanks Gardens June 6-Squaw Peak 50 Miler June 13-UT Valley Half Mar